I never thought there is such thing as "true love".
Uhmmm.. maybe i over exaggerated about it but
with what I've seen as i grew up, i thought it would be impossible.
I remember when i was in high school, i told my self that I'm not going to wed, but I'm going to have a baby. (lol! that was really stupid!) I planned to be a single parent :D. And I told my self that I'll just do it if I'm financially stable already (of course. I want to be able to attend everything what my child needs.) :D
I was thinking that I don't need a man to be happy. Nevertheless, I knew then that its hard to raise a baby, especially alone and unmarried. I thought I can do it because I knew then that I'm going to be a strong and independent in the future. Moreover, it would just be an additional headache to me as a working mom to have a disloyal husband who would just leave me in the end. So what is the use of the marriage? (i know.. i know.. that was insane..) So my plan was to have a baby whom I know will love me unconditionally and would never leave me because he/she is my own.
Well.. I came out with this plan before, (when I was just barely living the planet) because I was thinking that men will never be faithful until the end; that all of them will later get apathetic to their wives; they will look for another women we called "mistress"; and the result? wives' misery, obscure and confuse children, and a broken family.
Now, I know I was wrong. I was unfair judging and generalizing the men.
Well, you can't blame me. I was just a smart little girl who thought I understood everything. :))
Uhmm.. well... everything changed.
And it was because of him. ;)
